What if you lost your mother to a heart attack
And you feel a pain in your chest
Does this mean you should head to the ER
Or start going to a grief therapist?
What if you lost your mother to a heart attack
And your heart squeezes on a Sunday afternoon
While you're surrounded by your boyfriend's family
And the room becomes unsteady and Voices are too loud.
What if you lost your mother to a heart attack
And you remember she was 54 and you are 23,
And it seems like dying young is dying soon
And that is never fair at all.
What if you lost your mother to a heart attack
And you think about how powerless she probably felt
And you think about choosing between killing yourself and being killed
That anyone would choose to know the exact moment it all ends.
What if you lost your mother to a heart attack
And she died in a shower so now
Stepping into the shower feels like a death sentence
And while turning on the water you feel your blood rush.
What if you lost your mother to a heart attack
And you still find ways to enjoy your life
Despite sadness and frustration and fear
And you're no longer afraid to die.
What if you lost your mother to a heart attack
And your chest pains are deadly
What if you lost your mother to a heart attack
And your chest pains are benign
I'm still wondering.
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